Days go by… 

Hello fellow readers and thank you for viewing my post! I have been gone for a while and I figured maybe I should let you all in on why. 

The whole month of August was a blur. I began a journey that, at the time I had not realized exactly how hard it was going to be. I made the hard choice to go to my doctor and talk with her about my anxiety and depression… I just got to a point to where I couldn’t do it on my own anymore. I was in mental and physical pain everyday and I was becoming a very miserable person to be around. My body pain is mostly due to my Interstitial Cystitis and the ongoing symptoms. 

I was lost and I felt so alone… I stopped eating, getting out of bed, and most of all I stopped interacting with my friends and family. I had completely lost who I was and all I wanted to do was sleep. 

I began taking two medications and I was feeling better (pain wise) but I was sleeping  more than ever. My body was just going through a million different emotions… then one day Insomnia hit me BAD. So we made the choice to switch a medication. 

A new month meant a whole new struggle.. As I began taking a new medication everything just started getting bad. I lost 10 pounds and I had no appetite. All I could do was sleep, literally. I could not hold a conversation much less leave my house… I completely turned into a zombie. 

I made the choice myself (yes, I know) to stop taking the medication that was making me miserable. I spent weeks going through withdrawals, night sweats and muscle twitching. Literally I thought I was going to die in the beginning… it was so scary. 

Since only taking One medication I really feel better than ever. I have gained 12 pounds, happily living and loving life. I get out of bed greatful to be alive and to have another day with friends and family. I am a new and improved kasey. Although this journey has been hard, I wouldn’t change it. Nothing in my life has been easy and I have failed more than I would like to admit. I finally feel like the wife and mother I should have been a long time ago! The people I choose to be around are so supportive! For the first time ever feel like i am okay.

I am very thankful to be where I am. 

I hope you all get something out of reading this. It is very hard to open up about personal struggles but I hope to help someone going through the same or similar trials realizes there is hope. I am here for all of you. 

I will be back very soon with some Health, Beauty, and Photography posts. Also, thank you all for sticking around these past few months and being so awesome to me. You all mean so much to me. 

– Kasey Gruenewald 

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