Hey everyone, Yes I am still alive and I have not forgotten about my blog page! There has been a lot going on in my little world and due to running out of sleep medicine… I can not fall asleep for the life of me so I figured why not write a blog, right?
So this is somewhere I never thought I would actually be. Dealing with a eating disorder again, medications, kids, pets, family and life! How in he world did I used to do everything PLUS work? I have no clue!
My daughter had her 9th Birthday and her amazing grandparents sure know how to make her BIG day special! Following a celebration this weekend and I am SO excited! My first born is 9 years old and youngest is 6!!!! What???? How did this happen so fast!?!?
Some shithead did a Hit and Run on my car!!!! It was so scary and really made me scared to drive for a few weeks… I know that it could have been worse but my children were scared sick! Poor babies, as for myself I held myself together and told them everything was okay. Moms always have to be the strong ones!
Starting and switching medications has been a nightmare! I didn’t get out of bed for a solid month and a half! Didn’t get dress, no makeup… just sleep! It was terrible. I never thought it was going to be a RollerCoaster ride! Once I get used to something, something else changes! Lately I have been feel better but I still have a long road ahead of me!!
Depression is a tricky subject. Everyone thinks something different about it and not everyone has it the same. Some people want to fall apart while others are trying to rebuild themselves! I am not sure where I am on this journey but anyone who knows me knows damn well that I do not give up! Things are becoming clear and I am understanding the changes in my daily habits. Eating is becoming a lot easier and well let’s just say I can’t wait to pack on a few pounds or more! Sleeping is tricky with medications I go from drowsy to shaky, anxiety wired! It happens!
I am hopeful that the future will lead to brighter days but for now just know that I am okay. I have the most supportive husband and understanding children. I am so blessed! I will be back very soon and I have a lot to share with you all!
– Kasey Gruenewald