I was facing being a single mother and had nothing to show for myself other than my growing belly. I had no job, home, or money so yes I was extremely scared!
I had a Doctors appointment set, hunger to the max and let’s just say it was becoming obvious that I was pregnant! I hid my growing belly with loose clothing and continued school as normal until I finished my high school credits early so I was thinking “things are looking up” right?
I was living with my cousins and I am forever greatful that they were around in this terrible, confusing, and life changing part of my life. They will always stay very close to my heart for everything they helped me with when I didn’t have anyone else!
Just 3 days before my official first baby appointment I woke up and I was spotting blood and cramping but I didn’t worry until it was so bad I knew something was wrong.
My cousin rushed me to the ER where the Doctor checked on my little baby and that’s when my heart broke… he said that I needed to go home and be on bed rest until my appointment..
I was so scared, as I had never experienced that kind of pain both physically and mentally.. but I knew you were gone…
I was 4 months pregnant when I lost my first baby. If it wasn’t for a small handful of people who were there for me I don’t think I would have made it through that terrible experience.
So now, 10 years later I celebrate having two happy and healthy children and for that I am forever greatful! I thank God for Blessing me with the most loving and caring children I could ask for! I have a beautiful home and married to the most wonderful man I could ask for.
Not a day goes by that I don’t think of my baby and wonder what he/she would be like today but I will meet you one day in heaven!
So I am praying for all of the mothers out there who had the terrible experience of a Miscarriage. I pray for you on the day that may be the hardest and even on your strongest! May god be in your hearts tomorrow on the holiday that is a reminder of the day your heart truly broke.
– Kasey Gruenewald